Thursday, April 25, 2013

Running on Empty....

Recently, I've been feeling more and more like I'm running on empty. Some days I think I wasn't cut out for stay-at-home-mommyhood, but I'm sure it's just our recent circumstances that have me feeling this way. We here in Minnesota have literally had 6 months of winter this year. With a baby, I've found it very difficult to get outside for fresh air. Our walls feel like they're closing in on me. Thank goodness we've got some 70s in the five day forecast now.

Aside from the weather, I was a single parent for 17 days while my husband traveled for work. Even though I have help from my parents and in-laws, it is difficult being the one solely responsible for the kiddos. The fact that we had two snowstorms (in APRIL!!) combined with Bryce getting chickenpox, and Connor screaming one night with stomach pains didn't make things any easier. I was very proud of how well the first the first 13 days went (a weekend getaway with my mom and sister to help with the kids made a huge difference), but the last few days really burned me out. I have even more respect now for single parents and military spouses.

In the days since Mike has been home, Connor has been sick with a mystery fever, body/joint aches, no appetite and crabby attitude. I don't know how much more I can take. I'm feeling horrible for not enjoying every minute with my kids, and guilty for wanting time away from them.

I am extremely blessed in my life, and I know there are people far worse off than me. I just needed to vent. Any ideas people have on free or inexpensive ways to take a break or help me re-fuel would be more than welcomed! I have a lot of hope that the warm and sunny weather coming up will certainly help. Thanks for letting me vent :)